Okay, I am one of those people,
that when I think life is too much, I write. I write all the thoughts that are
running through my head and all of the feelings that are running through my
body. Well, just recently, I found a note that I didn’t have a chance to
finish, but it’s something I want to share.
“No one ever said that this would
be fair. And trust me we all know how it is. But there are always days that
makes it seem unbearable. There are days you will think that no one loves you,
you aren’t important and that it would be better to just disappear. I promise I
have those feelings all the time. It’s not fair. People tell you all the time
that to be happy, to be truly and sincerely happy, you must be happy with
yourself. But how can you? That’s just it, you can’t. You can’t when no one can
prove to you that you’re as great of a person as they say you are.”
Yeah. I am sure that anyone can
relate to having self-confidence issues. And if not, well then this is
embarrassing and you probably should stop reading here. But what I’ve come to
realize, that even though you will
have those days where you hit
rock bottom (or at least you think it’s rock bottom) and you think the entire
world is against you where you think you have nothing going for you, there is one
word that should always keep you going: LOVE. Love conquers all. Love is all
around you. The love God has for you. The love others have for you. The love
you have for others. And most importantly, the love you have for yourself. It’s
hard to imagine how much love is in this world if you really think about it.
More often than not, we focus too
much on the hate in this world. We hate God for not giving us the things we ask
for. I mean, he’s supposed to be a loving God, right? We hate others around us
because we’re too busy comparing ourselves to them. Jealousy is one evilest
thing in this world. We hate ourselves for not being where we planned to be. We
don’t have the look, the wardrobe, or the personality that we want. See, so
much hate.
Now all of the hate in this
world, how much can you control? The hate you have for God. Well, that means
you are selfish, impatient, and really just need to take a chill pill. The
thing you want to happen right now, at this moment, can honestly wait. One of
my favorite quotes I found on Pinterest says, “You can’t rush something you
want to last forever.” (Yes, I am one of those that quote a quote on Pinterest)
Always keep that quote in the back of your mind when you need something now.
The hate you have for others. First rule to keep in mind is that you can never
change a person. Never. No matter how hard you try. When it comes to hating
others, ask yourself why? If the answer is jealous, please just stop there.
Step back and realize that your life is just as great. The thing about life, it
is just measured in different ways. So yes, so and so may be skinnier than you,
have more of an outgoing and flirty personality, and have everything you want
in yourself. You call it perfection. Perfection. Perfection can be a taunting word.
Now there is perfection in you too. And with perfection comes love, and with
that comes loving yourself. I think it’s one of the hardest things to do in
life. Now loving yourself is something that is not expected of you every day.
That’s impossible. But learn to love yourself.
Love yourself. It is something
that haunts me daily. It’s all about learning to love who you are. Learning to
love your body as it’s the first thing people see. As much as I hate to say it,
we are a society that judges a book by its cover. We all know we’re guilty of
it. Your body is the cover that everyone sees. Make that cover one to be
remembered, one to be proud of, one that you love. With loving your body comes
loving your insecurities. For me, I hate the way my hands make a V no matter
how hard I try to close that gap. I hate the way a vein pops out of my head
when I laugh too hard. I have all the stupid and rude comments from people who
are too ignorant to realize what they’re saying. There’s the hate word again.
But you know what? Insecurities are something you cannot change. Not. A.
Single. One. So where do you go from here? Love. Love your insecurities.
Embrace them. Own them. Your insecurities are those little things that make
you, you.
Trust me, I’m not all high and
mighty in telling you all of this is easy to do. As you can tell from the
beginning, I still have to learn to love a few more things. But I took the
first step in trying and I hope you do too. Pain, sadness, heartbreak is
something everyone deals with. It is not just you and thinking that the world
is being cruel against you. So what is really important is that to know it is
okay to fall, to cry, and think your world is coming to an end. What truly
defines you is how you pick up the pieces after that. Something my uncle once
told me, “There is no such thing as a bad day. You just have a little bad in
every good day.” The same holds true with life. Remember that.
Love. Love. Love. Love is what
makes the world go round. Love makes every memory a little bit sweeter. Love
makes every relationship that much stronger. Love is how you make a life. Love
truly wins.